Well, Pete came by this morning for a quick "good morning" before leaving to head to Washington DC. He was extremely nervous about leaving but I told him that we would behave and that he should go. He gets back tomorrow evening.
Meanwhile, a combination of my mom, aunt, uncle, and cousin are watching the girls while he is gone. I haven't seen them since Sunday and won't see them until tomorrow. Really missing them, but gotta focus on Jake. I keep thinking if (God-forbid) Claire or Grace had some disease that required they be in the hospital for 3 weeks, then the other two siblings would just have to deal and I would need to focus on that one. So here I am, Jake needs me to be in the hospital for three weeks and the other two (for lack of better words) are just going to have to deal. I can't wait to be their full-time mommy again, though :)
When you are in a situation like this, some people really surprise you. Others, unfortunately, can disapoint you but given my determination to stay positive...lets focus on those that have surprised me. And let me be clear, its not that they have surprised me because they are typically mean people that have turned nice. It is simply a surprise of how much these already wonderful people have stepped up and amazed me as individuals even more than they previously did :)
First off, day shift NICU nurses... Seeing as we don't work the same shift, it is no suprise that there has not been a lot of activity outside of work (unfortunately). But today, I found myself surrounded by three very wonderful, supportive, and not to mention hilarious nurses who decided to eat their lunch in my room. Thank you so much to Brooke, Alex, and Becca for coming!!
Secondly, night shift NICU nurses... I love who I work with, plain and simple. This experience has shown me how blessed I am to be surrounded by these people. There is no doubt that starting at a new place is a rough transition for me. I tend to revert back to my high school days and turn into this needy, have to be included, socially awkward goober. Mixed with this is the need to know people like me and almost measuring my happiness based on being liked. (Crazy therapy session moment, apparently) It took about 1 1/2 years in our NICU for me to finally just let that go and be myself. Crazy enough, people liked me just being myself and not trying to hard a lot more! I am ecstatic to work with these women and even more so that I typically have a visitor in my room every night. It is such a good feeling and has really helped me through this past week. Thanks to Emily, Sarah, Ashley K., Erica, Courtney, Ashley L., Courtney, Jackie, Cindy, Deb, Nancy, and anyone else I have missed! I REALLY appreciate seeing your smiling faces :)
Next on the list, friends or friends of friends from high school. Today I was overwhelmed with good ole' BCHS and it felt great. First, Mike came and took me on a wheelchair ride (YEAY) to get a fountain Diet Pepsi and we sat outside in the sunshine and talked...it was awesome! Then, an old friend, Liz that I haven't talked to in months stopped by and we talked and caught up for an hour or so. My good friend Scott has a fabulous wife, Rachel. They brought their adorable son, John David and some delicious Don Pablos! She also brought me some celebrity magazines... we chatted and laughed and it was simply a wonderful distraction from being stuck in here!
Family has been no surprise but I still feel unbelievably blessed. My brother has come every day for lunch in spite of having a newborn, recently taking time of work for that, and it being the end of month crunch time. My sister calls at least twice a day to talk to me and take my mind of things and to just check in. My mom... can't say enough. She has watched the girls pretty much every day. She has cleaned my house, done laundry, bathed the girls, and been a solid rock for Pete and I to lean on. Aside from immediate family, aunts and uncles and cousins have also helped or are on the schedule to help and we could not appreciate it more.
Ohio family and friends...from phone calls to emails to care packages - who could ask for anything more? Pete's family is wanting constant updates and have prayer groups offering up prayers for Jake and I. My friend Anne has called at least 3 times since I have been in here. Jake's godmother, Erin is calling and prays for us every day. Trina emails me and checks on me frequently and always makes me laugh. Erin, a girl I used to work with in the NICU, sent a wonderful care package. SO many others have shown such wonderful support and I could not be more grateful!!
I guess my point is THANK YOU for all of the love and support. It means more than you know and I will continue to embrace every ounce of it!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Day #5
Today has really been a great day. Last night finished up with some ice cream from Claire and Grace around 7:30 pm. It was so great to see them! Unfortunately, Pete called me shortly after they left and said that Claire had puked everywhere and had a temperature. Just what that poor guy needs, more on his plate. Of course, he took it like a champ! She had a pretty slow moving day today but she seems to be feeling better now.
I slept pretty well last night but I have given up on the idea of some solid hours of sleep at night. I plan on getting a couple hours here and a couple of hours there for the rest of my stay but that is not a big deal because I can just take naps during the day.
My day started out meeting my really nice nurse. We chatted for a little bit. Then my doctor came in and (AGAIN) declined a wheelchair ride but he told me to keep asking. He did write for daily massages which sounds awesome! Apparently there is a massage therapist that rounds daily so that will quickly become a highlight to my day!
My friend from work, Jackie, came over to visit and we chatted for about 30 minutes which was really nice. A great friend from Ohio then called on the phone so I talked to her for about 45 minutes. Within 5 minutes of hanging up with her, my aunt and uncle showed up! Then, my friend Brooke from NICU came over and took her lunch break here. After Brooke came my brother, Keith for his lunch break. My other friend, Alex, from work came over and said hi for a few minutes. My afternoon consisted of a shower, some routine monitoring, and a little nap. Then I was greeted with delicious Fazoli's from Pete. He was able to stay for a few hours (thanks to my mom) and during his visit, my friend Jackie came for a bit. The evening ended with a visit from my friend, Emily from NICU and my friend Kari who is a nurse on high-risk.
Needless to say, this has been a very wonderful day! It is easy to keep a positive attitude with all of this wonderful support and visitors!
Currently 33 + 3 weeks pregnant with 18 days to go!!
I slept pretty well last night but I have given up on the idea of some solid hours of sleep at night. I plan on getting a couple hours here and a couple of hours there for the rest of my stay but that is not a big deal because I can just take naps during the day.
My day started out meeting my really nice nurse. We chatted for a little bit. Then my doctor came in and (AGAIN) declined a wheelchair ride but he told me to keep asking. He did write for daily massages which sounds awesome! Apparently there is a massage therapist that rounds daily so that will quickly become a highlight to my day!
My friend from work, Jackie, came over to visit and we chatted for about 30 minutes which was really nice. A great friend from Ohio then called on the phone so I talked to her for about 45 minutes. Within 5 minutes of hanging up with her, my aunt and uncle showed up! Then, my friend Brooke from NICU came over and took her lunch break here. After Brooke came my brother, Keith for his lunch break. My other friend, Alex, from work came over and said hi for a few minutes. My afternoon consisted of a shower, some routine monitoring, and a little nap. Then I was greeted with delicious Fazoli's from Pete. He was able to stay for a few hours (thanks to my mom) and during his visit, my friend Jackie came for a bit. The evening ended with a visit from my friend, Emily from NICU and my friend Kari who is a nurse on high-risk.
Needless to say, this has been a very wonderful day! It is easy to keep a positive attitude with all of this wonderful support and visitors!
Currently 33 + 3 weeks pregnant with 18 days to go!!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Every dog has its day...
We had a very enjoyable night light night playing cards with Cindy, Mike, and Pete. I was starting to feel a little funny as they left and realized that I just needed to get into bed.
They hooked me up to the monitor and after an hour the nurse came back in to ask how I was feeling. I told her that I could feel some contractions and she told me that I had been contracting every 4 minutes consecutively. They kept me on the monitor and gave me a medicine to stop the contractions. After about 1/2 hour they were better. It is still possible that they will have to put me on something stronger to ease all contractions which would require an IV and the drug tends to make people feel very crappy but it is all worth it for little Jake!
They had to draw some blood to make sure they had my blood type up to date in case of an emergent situation. Did I mention I hate needles?
SO, after realizing that the last time that I was contracting before I fell asleep I woke up in a very scary situation, I was unable to sleep a wink last night. I tossed and turned until about 3 am and then the anxiety got the best of me. I called my nurse in and had just hit my breaking point. I was a wreck. I was embarrassed and slightly hysterical.
The positive side is that I have friends working right down the hall that are up all night long. So, I made a phone call and within moments I had two very wonderful and supportive friends on either side of my bed. I cried and told them everything racing through my head. They listened and calmed me down and I am so grateful to Courtney and Ashley for coming over and being so fabulous!
Point of this entry... every dog has its day and I had a little bit of a negative breakdown early this morning. I am feeling much better and have had a good day so far. I have gotten to see my mom, Pete, and my girls - what more could I ask for? My nurse today is amazing and the nurses are ordering take out for lunch from Outback...something pretty typical for nurses. My nurse was so sweet to ask me if I wanted anything from their takeout order...its just the little things but it was so nice!
Hope everyone is having a great mother's day!!!
They hooked me up to the monitor and after an hour the nurse came back in to ask how I was feeling. I told her that I could feel some contractions and she told me that I had been contracting every 4 minutes consecutively. They kept me on the monitor and gave me a medicine to stop the contractions. After about 1/2 hour they were better. It is still possible that they will have to put me on something stronger to ease all contractions which would require an IV and the drug tends to make people feel very crappy but it is all worth it for little Jake!
They had to draw some blood to make sure they had my blood type up to date in case of an emergent situation. Did I mention I hate needles?
SO, after realizing that the last time that I was contracting before I fell asleep I woke up in a very scary situation, I was unable to sleep a wink last night. I tossed and turned until about 3 am and then the anxiety got the best of me. I called my nurse in and had just hit my breaking point. I was a wreck. I was embarrassed and slightly hysterical.
The positive side is that I have friends working right down the hall that are up all night long. So, I made a phone call and within moments I had two very wonderful and supportive friends on either side of my bed. I cried and told them everything racing through my head. They listened and calmed me down and I am so grateful to Courtney and Ashley for coming over and being so fabulous!
Point of this entry... every dog has its day and I had a little bit of a negative breakdown early this morning. I am feeling much better and have had a good day so far. I have gotten to see my mom, Pete, and my girls - what more could I ask for? My nurse today is amazing and the nurses are ordering take out for lunch from Outback...something pretty typical for nurses. My nurse was so sweet to ask me if I wanted anything from their takeout order...its just the little things but it was so nice!
Hope everyone is having a great mother's day!!!
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Day #4
I am proud to announce that I am 33 weeks today! As silly as it sounds, I like the ring of 33 weeks much more than 32 weeks!
My day has been very slow, but pleasant. I wasn't sure if Saturday would bring more activity, visitors, phone calls or what to expect. Pete came for about an hour and otherwise it has been me flying solo. I have gotten hooked on the TV show "One Tree Hill". Certainly not a super, high-quality show but definately does the trick of entertaining me.
I was able to get a good 6-7 hours of sleep last night and have even taken 2 naps today so I am feeling rejuvinated! The doctor came in this morning and said that he MIGHT let me out on a wheelchair ride tomorrow! I am so excited! Haven't left this room in 4 days so this is great news!
Needless to say, today has been a very relaxing day. I was able to talk on the phone with my sister and my good friend from Chicago for a bit.
My brother says my family is like the Colts right now - keep getting injured but just keep truckin' along. I like this expression...not only because I love the Colts, but because it shows my family's strength. Obviously losing my dad was the most difficult "injury" but we are pulling through together. The happiest "injury" is the birth of a beautiful baby girl, Allison. All of these other little "injuries" are just testaments to what our family is capable of I suppose.
My mom put her house on the market on Monday. I have had mixed emotions about this. Primarily, very happy for her and supportive of whatever she wants/needs to do to help grieve and move on as much as she can. Selfishly though, this is a very sad thing to me. Its the only house I've ever lived in as a child...from birth until marriage, Rowin Road was my home. It has so many memories in it. My mom has already received two offers on the house. In other words, its sold! She has found a perfect place to move to as well. Things could not have gone better! The pity party for myself is that if it closes quickly, will I ever step foot in that house again? Or was the last time I was over there, just casually passing through, the last time I will be there? I didn't even get to have a moment to take it all in. Whatever happens, I will always have the memories and am very happy for this new step in my mom (and my family's) life.
I have big plans for tonight :) Mike and Cindy are coming and we are going to play some cards! Pete is picking up some takeout and it is going to be a hospitalized double date! Ha! Plus, a couple of friends from work are going to swing over...it is going to be a party in this room!
Thanks to everyone for all of the love and support! It means more than you know!
Feeling blessed for another successful, pregnant day! :)
My day has been very slow, but pleasant. I wasn't sure if Saturday would bring more activity, visitors, phone calls or what to expect. Pete came for about an hour and otherwise it has been me flying solo. I have gotten hooked on the TV show "One Tree Hill". Certainly not a super, high-quality show but definately does the trick of entertaining me.
I was able to get a good 6-7 hours of sleep last night and have even taken 2 naps today so I am feeling rejuvinated! The doctor came in this morning and said that he MIGHT let me out on a wheelchair ride tomorrow! I am so excited! Haven't left this room in 4 days so this is great news!
Needless to say, today has been a very relaxing day. I was able to talk on the phone with my sister and my good friend from Chicago for a bit.
My brother says my family is like the Colts right now - keep getting injured but just keep truckin' along. I like this expression...not only because I love the Colts, but because it shows my family's strength. Obviously losing my dad was the most difficult "injury" but we are pulling through together. The happiest "injury" is the birth of a beautiful baby girl, Allison. All of these other little "injuries" are just testaments to what our family is capable of I suppose.
My mom put her house on the market on Monday. I have had mixed emotions about this. Primarily, very happy for her and supportive of whatever she wants/needs to do to help grieve and move on as much as she can. Selfishly though, this is a very sad thing to me. Its the only house I've ever lived in as a child...from birth until marriage, Rowin Road was my home. It has so many memories in it. My mom has already received two offers on the house. In other words, its sold! She has found a perfect place to move to as well. Things could not have gone better! The pity party for myself is that if it closes quickly, will I ever step foot in that house again? Or was the last time I was over there, just casually passing through, the last time I will be there? I didn't even get to have a moment to take it all in. Whatever happens, I will always have the memories and am very happy for this new step in my mom (and my family's) life.
I have big plans for tonight :) Mike and Cindy are coming and we are going to play some cards! Pete is picking up some takeout and it is going to be a hospitalized double date! Ha! Plus, a couple of friends from work are going to swing over...it is going to be a party in this room!
Thanks to everyone for all of the love and support! It means more than you know!
Feeling blessed for another successful, pregnant day! :)
Friday, May 6, 2011
Day #3
Well, here I am at the end of my third day and I am feeling pretty crummy right now. Pretty much just exhausted which seems crazy considering I have done nothing for 3 straight days. Problem being, I have also not slept much... a total of about 9 hours my entire stay so far. The nurse decided to call the doctor for a sleeping cocktail so I think they are going to knock me out tonight :)
Good news was last night they decided to leave my IV out. I fully understand that I will have to have access when I start to act up more but for now they feel safe giving me a break without an IV. They have talked about just putting a PICC line in because I am such a tough IV stick and the last one only lasted 18 hours. I've seen it done tons of times on babies, but for some reason I am still nervous for whenever they might be doing it to me. I suppose that is normal though...
Today started off with breakfast with my hubby which was awesome and a visit from the doctor. He spoke with us about the fact that when Jacob is delivered, there is a definite chance that it will be an emergent situation. He wanted to prep us for the fact that they may have to do a hysterectomy during the c-section if the bleeding is not able to be controlled. The idea of a hysterectomy at 28 years old is very scary/sad. BUT, we will (God willing) have three healthy children so we need to focus on that, have faith, and count our blessings...so that is what we are going to do!
Afterwards I took a shower and watched "Grown Ups". The movie was pretty funny and helped pass 1-2 hours. My brother came and joined me for lunch and then a friend from work brought a bunch of TV seasons for me to watch for entertainment. The afternoon was pretty lonely but I tried to stay busy with "to do" lists and solitaire.
My mom, Claire, Grace, and Pete were here for dinner which was nice. I am sad at the mom that I am to the girls right now. I know that I can't help it, but I get so excited for them to come visit and then when they are here, I realize that all of their climbing, wanting to be held, and pulling on me is really a hazard/risk so then I try and balance it out. It would be awesome if they came and just sat quietly on my lap....ha! Yea right!! I love watching them run around and play in my room but I have to explain to Claire why I can't come with her and it breaks my heart to see her bottom lip pout out and to hear her say "But why mommy?" I just have to keep telling myself that she won't remember this and that in a 3 year-0lds mind, these weeks will be remembered like days to her.
So, goal for tonight is to get some sleep! Hoping to wake up tomorrow and be revived, refreshed and 33 weeks pregnant!!
Thanking God for another passing day with a healthy baby boy and family :)
Good news was last night they decided to leave my IV out. I fully understand that I will have to have access when I start to act up more but for now they feel safe giving me a break without an IV. They have talked about just putting a PICC line in because I am such a tough IV stick and the last one only lasted 18 hours. I've seen it done tons of times on babies, but for some reason I am still nervous for whenever they might be doing it to me. I suppose that is normal though...
Today started off with breakfast with my hubby which was awesome and a visit from the doctor. He spoke with us about the fact that when Jacob is delivered, there is a definite chance that it will be an emergent situation. He wanted to prep us for the fact that they may have to do a hysterectomy during the c-section if the bleeding is not able to be controlled. The idea of a hysterectomy at 28 years old is very scary/sad. BUT, we will (God willing) have three healthy children so we need to focus on that, have faith, and count our blessings...so that is what we are going to do!
Afterwards I took a shower and watched "Grown Ups". The movie was pretty funny and helped pass 1-2 hours. My brother came and joined me for lunch and then a friend from work brought a bunch of TV seasons for me to watch for entertainment. The afternoon was pretty lonely but I tried to stay busy with "to do" lists and solitaire.
My mom, Claire, Grace, and Pete were here for dinner which was nice. I am sad at the mom that I am to the girls right now. I know that I can't help it, but I get so excited for them to come visit and then when they are here, I realize that all of their climbing, wanting to be held, and pulling on me is really a hazard/risk so then I try and balance it out. It would be awesome if they came and just sat quietly on my lap....ha! Yea right!! I love watching them run around and play in my room but I have to explain to Claire why I can't come with her and it breaks my heart to see her bottom lip pout out and to hear her say "But why mommy?" I just have to keep telling myself that she won't remember this and that in a 3 year-0lds mind, these weeks will be remembered like days to her.
So, goal for tonight is to get some sleep! Hoping to wake up tomorrow and be revived, refreshed and 33 weeks pregnant!!
Thanking God for another passing day with a healthy baby boy and family :)
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Day #2
Well, folks...get used to some updating because that is about all I have to do! From a blog that used to update once a month - this might become a daily thing :)
Today started off with another small bleeding episode but luckily it stopped. Just to be negative for a second- I have to have IV access at all times "just in case" and my IV went bad. The thought of having to get a new IV every 18 hours (since that is how long this one lasted) is certainly not a fun idea! I have also been blessed with awful veins!
To continue the negativity for a second, I get meds at 0600, 0900, 1200, 1800, 2100 and midnight. The baby's heart rate and my contractions have to be monitored for one hour, three times a day at 10 pm, 6 am, and 2 pm. This means my hours to sleep at night are midnight (after my med) until 6 am. During that time I have to wear these cuffs on my legs to help with circulation that continuously inflate and deflate.
Final negative thoughts - I will miss a church service in honor of my dad, my cousin's graduation, a family party on mother's day, my girl's last day of school, my girl's night time routine every night, my cousin's open house, a massage that I had scheduled, a weekend of visitors from Ohio, pillow talk with my hubby, etc.
Wah, Wah, Wah.... I work in the NICU - things could be worse. I have two/three healthy children - things could be worse. I have a wonderful, loving, supportive husband - things could be worse. I am "stuck" in a place where I have lots of wonderful people working right down the hall (and upstairs) - things could be worse. I have excellent, stress-free childcare for my girls (thanks to amazing family and friends) - things could be worse. I get made-to-order meals delivered to me every meal AND I don't have to do the dishes - things could be worse!
Point being that I am not going to look at this in a pitty party sort of way... at least not today. Disclaimer is thrown out there if they put me on Magnesium (and I lose my mind a bit) or I have a down day every now and then. Hopefully I will look back on this blog entry and realize that this is a time to enjoy every kick, every heartbeat I hear on the monitor, everything!
Feeling blessed and thankful each passing day...
Weeks: 32 weeks + 5 days
Goal: 23 more days to go!
Today started off with another small bleeding episode but luckily it stopped. Just to be negative for a second- I have to have IV access at all times "just in case" and my IV went bad. The thought of having to get a new IV every 18 hours (since that is how long this one lasted) is certainly not a fun idea! I have also been blessed with awful veins!
To continue the negativity for a second, I get meds at 0600, 0900, 1200, 1800, 2100 and midnight. The baby's heart rate and my contractions have to be monitored for one hour, three times a day at 10 pm, 6 am, and 2 pm. This means my hours to sleep at night are midnight (after my med) until 6 am. During that time I have to wear these cuffs on my legs to help with circulation that continuously inflate and deflate.
Final negative thoughts - I will miss a church service in honor of my dad, my cousin's graduation, a family party on mother's day, my girl's last day of school, my girl's night time routine every night, my cousin's open house, a massage that I had scheduled, a weekend of visitors from Ohio, pillow talk with my hubby, etc.
Wah, Wah, Wah.... I work in the NICU - things could be worse. I have two/three healthy children - things could be worse. I have a wonderful, loving, supportive husband - things could be worse. I am "stuck" in a place where I have lots of wonderful people working right down the hall (and upstairs) - things could be worse. I have excellent, stress-free childcare for my girls (thanks to amazing family and friends) - things could be worse. I get made-to-order meals delivered to me every meal AND I don't have to do the dishes - things could be worse!
Point being that I am not going to look at this in a pitty party sort of way... at least not today. Disclaimer is thrown out there if they put me on Magnesium (and I lose my mind a bit) or I have a down day every now and then. Hopefully I will look back on this blog entry and realize that this is a time to enjoy every kick, every heartbeat I hear on the monitor, everything!
Feeling blessed and thankful each passing day...
Weeks: 32 weeks + 5 days
Goal: 23 more days to go!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Baby Jacob Update
I have a typical structure when it comes to posting updates on our blog. This one is going to be a little different.... a little more candid, straight-from-the-heart blog entry.
I am 32 weeks and 4 days pregnant. To a NICU nurse, that is great. To a mom, that is still a very scary gestational age.
As some of you may know, I was diagnosed at 18 weeks with a complete previa. This means my placenta is covering my cervix which is problematic if I contract/labor because that means the placenta would come out before baby and pose a huge risk to baby and myself. We rechecked the placenta at 28 weeks and it had improved but still slightly problematic. The symptom they told me to watch for was any spotting or bleeding.
I woke up at 4:05 am this morning and without going into too much detail, easily noticed the one symptom I was advised to watch for. I don't know that I have ever been more scared in a pregnancy than I was this morning. Pete was calm, cool, and collected - he was amazing!
We came into the hospital and had some tests done including an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed that the placenta was back to being a complete previa (i.e. the placenta was completely covering my cervix) and was most likely the cause of my pregnancy scare. The bleeding has stopped and now I am just sitting here in a hospital bed listening to that beautiful baby's heart beat. On the ultrasound, Jake measured 4 lbs 10 oz and was doing "practice breathing" which they assured me was a great sign.
The doctor has informed me that I am hospital bound for the remainder of the pregnancy. I am really hoping to make it to 35 weeks but would be ecstatic for anything after that. I have decided that each passing day is another day that he has grown and remained healthy in utero. I am trying to be as positive as possible because the LAST thing I need to do is stress about all of this. "Try and relax" is what they keep telling me....what a joke! But I will try...
I miss Claire and Grace already. They are so much fun to watch and I just feel bad for what the next weeks will bring. Don't get me wrong...we have excellent family and friends and there are so many people that have stepped up and are willing to help. We are SO grateful for that. Selfishly though, I am still sad its not me. I know right now I just need to focus on Jake - he is the child that needs me the most right now.
I will continue to keep you updated - I have nothing but time on my hands :)
I think I will be bored the next few weeks so phone calls are welcome/appreciated
(317-415-7512).
Any visitors are also welcome...
Prayers are greatly appreciated!
I am 32 weeks and 4 days pregnant. To a NICU nurse, that is great. To a mom, that is still a very scary gestational age.
As some of you may know, I was diagnosed at 18 weeks with a complete previa. This means my placenta is covering my cervix which is problematic if I contract/labor because that means the placenta would come out before baby and pose a huge risk to baby and myself. We rechecked the placenta at 28 weeks and it had improved but still slightly problematic. The symptom they told me to watch for was any spotting or bleeding.
I woke up at 4:05 am this morning and without going into too much detail, easily noticed the one symptom I was advised to watch for. I don't know that I have ever been more scared in a pregnancy than I was this morning. Pete was calm, cool, and collected - he was amazing!
We came into the hospital and had some tests done including an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed that the placenta was back to being a complete previa (i.e. the placenta was completely covering my cervix) and was most likely the cause of my pregnancy scare. The bleeding has stopped and now I am just sitting here in a hospital bed listening to that beautiful baby's heart beat. On the ultrasound, Jake measured 4 lbs 10 oz and was doing "practice breathing" which they assured me was a great sign.
The doctor has informed me that I am hospital bound for the remainder of the pregnancy. I am really hoping to make it to 35 weeks but would be ecstatic for anything after that. I have decided that each passing day is another day that he has grown and remained healthy in utero. I am trying to be as positive as possible because the LAST thing I need to do is stress about all of this. "Try and relax" is what they keep telling me....what a joke! But I will try...
I miss Claire and Grace already. They are so much fun to watch and I just feel bad for what the next weeks will bring. Don't get me wrong...we have excellent family and friends and there are so many people that have stepped up and are willing to help. We are SO grateful for that. Selfishly though, I am still sad its not me. I know right now I just need to focus on Jake - he is the child that needs me the most right now.
I will continue to keep you updated - I have nothing but time on my hands :)
I think I will be bored the next few weeks so phone calls are welcome/appreciated
(317-415-7512).
Any visitors are also welcome...
Prayers are greatly appreciated!
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